I'm worried for not being worry for my exams.

Despite having to study alone today in the library, it was not that bad after all, eventhough my progress was a little too slow.

Hui Jin's sweet enough to check on me with her occasional text messages.

And as usual crazy fellowship time with Dr E's always awesome and time really flies when we're enjoying ourselves. Thanks for spending your precious time despite the amount of work you have, and the iced mocha! I'm truly truly thankful for you, thank you! Haha, I just felt the need to journal these down as I journey on.

You know what, I'm worried for not being worry for my exams. Dr E thinks I'm crazy. Well, maybe she's right =)

Go-no-hiii

If you notice my blogging time, its now 4.17am and I'm still awake, thanks to the latte just now =)

I'm revising Sexual Transmitted Infections for the second time now, looking at those disgusting pictures of infected penises and vagina(s) and anal(s), somehow Dr Stacey's go-no-hi (Gonorrhea) kept ringing in my mind.

Go-no-hiiiii
Go-no-hiiiii
Go-no-hiiiii
Go-no-hiiiii
Go-no-hiiiii
Go-no-hiiiii
Go-no-hiiiii
Go-no-hiiiii

Yeah, like that. I think I'm panaroid now =/

Okayla, I think you won't get it unless you're from my class.

*back to revision*

Jo Kien Calls It A Retarded Dream.

He mocked my dream =(

As retarded as it is, today I dreamt that I collapsed (for a while) due to acute myocardial infarction. Then I got up again.

What does that supposed to mean? Any interpretation?

*edit*
P/s: And (Heng Hui) Jin thinks that I think too much. Well..

Sunday.

Yesterday, I had a weird dream.

I dreamt that I was re-parking my car 'cause my car was parked very far away from the place I was at. And then, I found a parking space, side-parking-kind of parking space along a road lar, very near Dr Emily's car. And her kerbau was there. Then when I reversed to park my car, my car accidentally went forward a little (jerking kind, like mati-enjin that kind). That kerbau, who has been watching me, thought I did that to challenge him or something. He, that kerbau, then came attacking me by jumping onto my car's windscreen (their typical way of attacking lar) and then bounced back. My windscreen shattered and the pieces of glasses all stucked on my left arm. Then I came out of the car, called Dr Emily and complained bout her kerbau's misbehaviour and sulking over my injured arm.

Then, Mun Wah woke me up.

Since I didn't get a reply from her in the dream, I text-ed her and to her reply, "Haha.. you must be too stressed with your exams. Not too worry, I don't have a bull but a small puppy :)" -.-


Now that when I relate the entire story, it doesn't make sense eh. Actually, since when dreams make sense uh?

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Tomorrow's Deepavali!! Hoorayyy! I love Indian Food!

Talking bout food, I realise Malaysians only eat one meal a day. That is all day long.


Taman Eng Ann Food Court. These hawker stalls were under a tree last time before it became a food court.

This picture was taken at 4.50pm today and look, the food court's still packed with people.



I literally waited for at least 20 minutes just to pack a bowl of assam laksa from this stall and orders kept coming in.



And this huge bowl of assam laksa costs only RM 3.50 and its good! My whole family shared this bowl of assam laksa and I'm so full now!

If any of you were to come to Klang, I really do not know where I can bring you other than places with good food =)

Yue Liang Dai Biao Wo De Xin.

Dear Nick,

I hate to say this but family gathering was never so much the same without you. We miss memalukan stories from you, but most of all the laughters lar. We still do laugh no doubt, but yeah, I bet you know where I'm getting at larr.




So, as usual karaoke session at your place after dinner. Your mom actually calls it the Orange Box and she asked if we want to go Orange Box after dinner. She's so funny larr...

Wah actually took awhile to get it, she thought your mom painted that room orange -.-




As usual the guys acted macho and didn't want to sing except for Josh, he was forced to sing (yes again!). Haha! He requested for Circle of Life (The Lion King) this time instead of 100 years. Not bad, I think he got a distinction for it, if not mistaken.





The cousins got a bit more hyped singing songs (with actions) like YMCA and Livin' La Vida Loca.

Kumah enjoyed watching us sing while enjoying her spiced-kuaci (snacks provided by your mom, really like Green Box lar!), she even laughed at us or amazed at good songs.





As you can see from the pictures, for a change, the adults came in and joined us later that night! Your mom was with us in the room throughout the entire night.. awesome right?





And oh! Wah duet-ed with mom this song, Yue Liang Dai Biao Wo De Xin and guess what..





Haha you see it right, ZERO! LOL. I think they started at the wrong key or something larr.

Anyway, we just wanna say you're missed by us all! And this song is dedicated to you, truly, yue liang dai biao wo (men) de xin!

P/s: go ask someone if you don't know what it means =)

Something You Don't Know.

These days I feel cranky, I feel condemned, I don't feel loved, I don't feel good, I don't feel appreciated, I don't feel.. the list can go on and on la, you get the drift. Basically, I'm paranoid la. These feelings come and go once in a while ever since the incident 4 years ago and I hate it when they come. And I know by right, I shouldn't even allow it to seep into my life in the first place, what more allowing it to dwell in me. I don't know larr.. jiorr.

And I secretly wished that someone would come by, or God would just send someone to come to me or to call to ask and to care and all like how He'd usually send me to various ones by speaking to me and see them blessed.

Someone was just telling me the other day that there's a difference between close long old friends and close new friends. Some would just go all out for you in times of need without worrying if they will get themselves into trouble while some would just "help" you if its convenient for them, and we're not talking about those extra miles business here.

To think bout it, man, she's half correct bout this theory. At this point of time (not that I'm really in deep trouble or anything la, really I'm not), I actually see neither of them. Actually now I really wonder if I had any close friends in the first place.

With these, I don't believe in karma. Call me Emo.

Is It Wrong To Study?

The Monash library nowadays is so packed with people that not a single unoccupied table can be found. That was the case for Dyanna the other day.

Exam season laa.. that explains right?

See, I'm clever, so I'll usually crash Sunway College instead. The library there's quite packed as well, but what they have is alot of empty unoccupied classrooms. Yes, classrooms! Xuewen, Pei Fun, Renee (occasionally) or Jon (occasionally) and myself would hijack an empty classroom there and that will be our library for the day. Provided no security guards chasing us off, that is.

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Last week's incident was my, by far, most embarrassing moment in my Uni days. You know la, no more Sue-li along side, not much embarrassing stories to tell.

Well, Pei Fun, Renee and I were studying in this classroom last week. The settings of the classroom is somewhat like following:


So when we heard sound (closing of doors of other classrooms), me, being the smart alec decided to play some hide-and-seek game with the patrolling guards. We turned off all the lights in the classroom and hid at the position as above. Renee squatted next to me while Pei Fun dengan pandainya went to the opposite (just as illustrated above).

I saw the guard peeping in through the small see-through-glass of Door A. Well, the door is something like this:

and he peeped in through that small transparent glass la. I was actually hiding just underneath there but of course he couldn't see anything since it was pitch-dark. He left, so we were safe.. Phew!


but that's not the end of the story yet!


He heard sound! So the guard went to Door B and that's because we forgot to turn off the noisy grandpa aircond!! OMG! At the sound of him turning the knob of door B makes me go ternganga and seriously, I do not know what should we do next.

He opened Door B, and the diffusion of lights from the outside of the classroom shone into classroom revealed Pei Fun's shadow a little. The guard then switched on the lights and said "Hello" to us.

How embarrassing I tell you! To be found hiding, squatting down in the dark at the back of those tables and chairs waiting to be revealed. We raised our white flags and left the classroom =(

Lesson learnt. No point turning off the lights only, we must also turn off the airconds and make sure the doors are locked!

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Next, since we were at the first floor, I decided to bring them to the fourth floor to hijack another class knowing that the guard has already checked them all. All doors were locked. I borrowed Pei Fun's library card, like what those intruders do, I opened the class' door with the card slit in.. The door was opened in approximately 8 seconds!

Pei Fun and Renee were definitely amazed by this magic and tutorial time was next! Taught both of them the trick and they did it! Now, both of them passed (with flying colours) in hijacking classrooms with a library card. Kudos!

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So today (another different story) Pei Fun, Xuewen, Jon and I got chased out from the class ('cause we were too slow!). That resorts us to hijack another class.

At every sound of footsteps, we'd quickly turn off the lights and airconds (the doors are locked always). Man, it was quite thrilling, so much of the adrenaline rush for the false alarms!

They hid something like these:


Pei Fun, xuewen and Jonathan.


Pei Fun


Jon

So we stayed in the dark for good ol' 10 minutes, hiding like an illegal immigrant.

Then someone mentioned, is it wrong to study?

I Was Supposed To Study (Part 2).

"Think books. Sleep books. Eat books."

Those are wise words from xuewen and she wants me to write it down somewhere.

Xuewen's not well today, so the studying plan not on. And because of this, a lazy bug bit me and maybe give it another try to do some studying at home? Let's see what I did today..

• woke up at 1pm
• makan
• watched tv
• shopped for WISE Cottage Fries (to be wiser) and livita
• emails, facebook, msn, blog hopping
  
• play the guitar

Experiment failed again. Previous theory was reconfirmed, I think I need to go to school! Exam's getting nearer and I'm so not ready again. Ahh.. repent.

Tomorrow it will be!

I want badminton!! I think I need a cup of nice brewed coffee. Any kind souls will be rewarded.. =)

Sometimes..

..we think we're wise.



and we do things and thinking that they're right and then we wonder why we still get a zero at the given task..


that's because we're not that wise after all.



Jesus, I know Your ways are higher than my ways and I may not see the plan You have for my life. But I pray that You'll grant me Your wisdom. Open my eyes and heart to see things the way You see it, Lord. Here I surrender myself wholly to You and I know I'm called blessed because of You. Thank You and in Jesus' Name, amen.

Don't You Wish You Have A Mentor Like Mine?

Dear mentor,

I'm revising in the library now and I'm so demotivated! Kept losing my
focus and the progress is so slow. I need motivation. Help! =(

yours truly,
demotivated mentoree =(


Aiyo..what happen? Which unit are you revising?
I can belanja you sweets...give you more energy and focus..


Food Science. The syllabus is not difficult at all. Just being very
restless here. Sweets? No other ways ah? Hahaha.


Am very busy la..cannot go out from office..sob sob

Probably drop by my office and have a quick motivational chat :)


Do you? =)

Is It That Hard?

Just the other night, a few of my friends came apologizing to me through msn. Actually I don't see the point for them to apologize when I feel that they don't really mean it? As in, when you're really really asking for forgiveness, that's when you've realize what was wrong and I'm sure you won't want to repeat the same thing again right? So don't come to me when you don't even know what's going on. There's seriously no need for apologies because I know that the same thing will bound to happen again. That's because you don't even know what's going on.


And then you suddenly apologized for all you've done these 7 years. Or 4 years? I seriously don't know how to answer you. To be honest, I really really would love to tell you that "you're forgiven", to make you feel better and to die in peace. But deep down, I know I haven't forgotten that deep cut and I doubt the best plastic surgeon in the world could remove that scar. And if I were to tell you I've accepted your apologies, that'd make me a liar. I'm sorry dear. I've been trying very hard to let go for a long time, but the wound still feels so fresh and would pain me from time to time. Give me some time, dear, and I believe I'll make it to tell you before I die.


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Today's a fruitful day!

I sat in the library from 2.30 - 10.45pm today and I've actually managed to finish glancing through Medical Micro for this Wednesday's revision. And its really different if you study with your own strength, or with God. And He really did cause my brain to absorb like a sponge. He's awesome! Like, always?

"I've learned not to rely on myself but to have the child-like faith that all of us once had when we were much younger" (alxt '08)

Child-like faith, that's what I'm trying to get back to. Is it that hard? Hold my hands, and I know You'll bring me through. Thank You, Jesus.

They Say I'm Supposed To Study!

"Must win!"

The war begins tomorrow today! Come, bring it on! The army of God is with me, whom shall I fear?

p/s: xuewen and peifun, don't forget our date! =)

The Truth.

Cikgu Chee | says:
but i admit im bad la

sharon says:
haha yes u are!

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'nuff said.

Ada Gaya Tiada Mutu.

I wonder how many of you still remember this entry bout my nervousness before my Pharmacology presentation last semester?

Part of it was because of the presence of this someone in the class la.

Just today, I had to present for Immunology and this someone was in the lecture hall again and the same pressure was there. History repeats, you see. Thank God this someone left during the second group's presentation (my group was the third). Phew~

Though being under-prepared, I just gave my best shot in presenting. And when I asked my group members if I sounded nervous (everyone sounded nervous) when I was presenting, they told me that I sounded very confident and know my stuffs very well. Uh huh

My looks and voice could be deceiving, you know. If only you were very near me, you would have seen that I was so nervous that I could barely lift my finger to press the 'enter' button to change to the next slide. There was no ATP released! I just went numb.

When it comes to the Q & A session, my group member was asked this question. She couldn't answer, and I couldn't help her answer too.

Mk ah, what's the point having the Gaya but no Mutu?


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Tomorrow's Immunology midterm exam.

And I believe because of His complete work on the cross, because of His grace and favour in my life, He will cause my brain to absorb like a sponge!!

Yeah, absorb them Immunology man! Pretty please. Thank You!

Selamat Hari Raya!

When I wished you that, that doesn't mean you're a Muslim.



At this point of time in Malaysia, I know it's (really) silly to say that there shouldn't be distinct races, but we're all of one race. The truth is, whether we like it or not, we're Malaysians and I'm (somehow) proud to be one =)

If only.

What's the point when you're the youth leader of your church, worship leading on the stage or even preach when you didn't even bother telling or dare not tell or show your friends in school how much Jesus loves them?

I'm talking bout myself.

Just the other day I was talking to babe and Nicole before music practice and I don't know what led me to suddenly think of this friend I met back in National Service. He's a Chinese guy (whom almost all the 400 girls in the camp will go goo goo gaa gaa after) who happens to be in the same platoon as me who became quite close to me. He claimed that we were from the same Chemistry tuition before during our secondary school days and all. Not that I remember him, but yeah, he's also from Klang.

This guy, whom all the girls like so much actually confused me as I talked to him even more. He introduced himself to me with a Chinese name but he introduced himself as Syah in front of the rest of 800+ NS trainees (he's the CO in NS -- the captain of all company leaders btw).

I gathered all my courage one day to clear my confusion, in one of our conversations, I asked bout his name and his doings (I saw him praying in the surau). To my surprise, he told me that he's a Muslim. I asked him why did he convert himself. He said he was from a so-called 'buddhist' background but he doesn't know anything bout their 'god'. He feels empty and at the same time, he was looking for something that would fill his life. It was when he was exposed to agama Islam in form 2 Sejarah textbook (no pun intended) that he became more interested and wanted to know more. That's also when he memeluk Islam.

It was very sad for me to hear that. The truth is, this guy, just like every other guys out there wants to know God. They also want to be loved, they also want to feel belonged. All they want is not a religion, but a personal relationship.

If only I know him back then..
If only someone shared with him earlier..
If only someone tells him that Jesus loves him earlier..

But the truth is that there's no point for me to go on with 'If only'. History will still remain to be history. Let's do something with what we are left with.

At the end of the day, there are no prizes for 'religion with most members' since Christianity is not even a religion in the first place! At the end of the day, it's all about Jesus and eternal life.

Friends, I think it's time that we should shower them with His love. After all, we love because Jesus first loved us (1 John 4:19). Amen?

Just thought I should share bout it.