Ideality? No way!

Is there such thing as an ideal world? Sadly, the answer is no.

I remember when I was much younger, I used to dream of ideality. You know, like I want my father to be a guy who holds me on his lap, loves me, smiles at all times, listens to me whenever I tell him tales from my classes, asks me to join him washing his cars, splashing water at one another and loves my mom. He must also be some cool happening guy who can mingle with my friends and my friend must find him friendly and not scared of him. And my dad should be someone who knows how to explain why and how i'm wrong and teach me the right from the wrong with facts and examples and not with physical violences.

Also, I want a mom who knows everything bout me, loves me for who I am, understands all my problem and try to advise good solutions instead of pointing fingers or scold me, someone who would share my ups and downs with, someone that I can confide with, someone who will stand up for me, be in my shoes and will not be shaken by other people's influence.

All along, I wanted an older brother who's proud of me, bring me out even with his gang of friends, chillout with me, listen to my problems, not a nerdy boring guy but one with his own unique cheekiness, spends time with me and pampers me. Oh, and he must be good in both academic and sports too!

To me, an ideal family would have everyone so united and take care of each other's back. An ideal family would have everyone sharing everything with everyone and support and encourage and love.

... actually, I don't know where I'm getting at right now. I believe this could just be a standard, a standard that no one can follow. If not, there won't be needs for Jesus to come. I believe I'll experience all these when I get back to heaven.


"Lord.. please forgive me for having such thoughts. I want to breathe right now, I really want to breathe. I thank You for what You've given me, and for now I just pray that You'd manifest Yourself even more in my life, in this family. Open up our blinds eyes and unlock our deaf ears, I pray, and that we'll be transformed into Your image more and more. I surrender my soul to You once again. In Jesus' Name, amen."

Determination.

In the beginning of this year, Amelia and I were quite determined to train our stamina, stay fit and exercise our muscles a little. Being in this medical line, meeting with doctors and patients at all time, I seriously agree that we all should take exercise a little more serious.

Looking at my paternal side of family history, all the more I need to really start taking good care bout my health. Coronary heart diseases? They run in the blood. Probably in mine too.

I understand we can take medication when we're diagnosed with heart diseases, hypertension, diabetes and whatnot; but these medication will not take you very far as it'd be a chronic disease (long term, can control but not cure). Other than medication, I've been preaching about healthy diet intake and appropriate exercises.

However, our enthusiastic start for this year's jog dropped a little with time and from an average of 3 days a week becomes only 2 times a week or sometimes once. There were even weeks that we didn't jog at all (I'm talking bout 2 consecutive weeks). We'd usually call it off whenever one can't make it.

So, as a result, my stamina level dropped! Let's say I planned to go 4 rounds without stop, afraid that I can't achieve that I'll tell myself 2 or 3 rounds would be good too. You see, human's like that.. if we put an "or" word there, we'd usually satisfy even if we stop at 2. We're talking bout complacency here. If only we push further, we can stretch it to 3. And of course, if we're determined, we can go up to 4 or 5!

It's all in the mind! That's just an example and I see these taking place everyday (not only for jogs). Let's push ourselves further! Let's stretch our capacity, folks! Let's not be easily satisfied with our mundane achievements (they're not even considered as achievements anymore) but lets be determined with what our initial goal is!

The bible told us that we have authority over our life and our words are command. If we say we're tired, then we will be tired. If we say we're not good, then we're not good. Folks, why not start proclaiming victory (but not too far from realistic please.. our spirit is able but our flesh says cant). Let's command that we will do well in our studies! Let's command that we'd do well in our work place! Let's command that we'll be all healthy and H1N1 cannot touch us. Just command all things to take place in your life. Let's proclaim God's favour in our lives.

Be blessed.

I'm In Awe of You.

Was dining with Agnes just now at EuroDeli @ Damansara Kim. The food, the ambience -- I would think they deserve 8.5/10 (they deserve more, but definitely everything would need room for improvement)

We were talking bout camps and everything and suddenly Agnes said, "You'll make a very good doctor"

I personally think that I'd make a better teacher in relating science and medicine to people around me. I love sharing and I bet you can feel my passion and enthusiasm when it comes to talking Science.

Anyway, as I was sharing bout the satisfaction we get when our friends receive the knowledge and how they relate it in their life, applying it and see facts becoming alive (not just for the sake of memorizing).

You know, most scientists are atheists. They don't believe in God. They only believe in proofs, and believing the existence of God without seeing them would be a difficult thing for them and almost impossible.

To them, there must always be a law or theory behind every phenomenon, supporting them with proof but how do one explain bout the disappearance of cancer tumours in last stage patients?

How do one explain when the blind without a retina can see?
How do one explain when a deaf man without the three ear bones (no vibration) started hearing?
How do one explain when a lame man can walk?
How do one explain when the sick people got healed when hands were laid on them?
How do one explain when dead people, died for 3 days were raised and going around sharing the good news?

How do one explain all these? When natural power says cannot, supernatural power will take over. As easy as that, as long as we believe.

You know, the more I study bout human, the more I'm amazed by God? Imagine, it took the scientists good 10 years to identify and complete mapping the entire Human Genome when God carefully created them? How all these genes with the different codings actually give rise to different unique person with different phenotype and God created each person carefully and wonderfully and uniquely and at the end of the creation, He'd say, "This is beautiful"

The more I study bout which gene, or how the apostopsis (programmed cell death) between my fingers was done so that my hand can hold things. Just imagine all our fingers were stuck together as one hand and they were not separated, I cannot even type all these out on this keyboard by allowing my fingers to dance on the keyboard, what more stretching one finger from another on the guitar frets to produce music? If not for the apoptosis that God has already thought of at his creation process.

You know, the more I study how each chamber of the heart functions, how it controls (ECG etc) the speed and amount of the blood flow throughout our body, or the more I study bout nephron and how they only allow certain solutes to pass through the collecting ducts so that no unnecessary water loss happens, or when we study how the liver controls the whole body's metabolism... take into consideration how God carefully put all these together and at the end of the creation, all he said was "This is beautiful"

The more I study bout all these, the smaller I feel.
The more I study, the more I know bout Him
The more I study, the more I'm amazed by Him.
The more I study, the smaller I become.

I can only stand in awe of You, the maker of all things.

M&Ms

Do you know why M&Ms melt in your mouth and not in your hands?

Actually that's not only true to M&Ms but all (pure) chocolates generally. Only M&Ms applies science to its slogan.

The reason behind it is because chocolates' melting point is 37⁰C. In your hands, the temperature is still below 37⁰C and they will not melt yet unless you grab it in your palm for a while and this causes the heat energy from your body (37⁰C) to be transferred to the chocolates and melt them. So that also explains why sometimes M&Ms do melt in your hands eh

The World Without Strangers.

I was out from the clinic and as I was walking towards my car.. guess what I saw?



I'm not sure if this is how it looks like when they make love? We all learn that in Form 3 Science Chapter 3 but does it apply the same for insects? I mean, how?



Like that?

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On my way back from work last evening, I decided to call a good friend that I haven't heard for quite some time now. It was a good catchup I must say. We chatted from LDP all the way back to Klang, through the jam. I was glad that someone was accompanying me all the way, after a long day's work.

We've known each other when we were 16. She was a very shy person and we got close after the camp only, after I came back from Kuching. The wonders of internet I would say. She's a real great friend that you can confide in, an awesome person to hear you out and yet secrets will be kept with her, a darling to everyone.

I was packing my room just the other day (its sparkling clean and tidy now) and I found the box of letters that she sent. Memories!



And as I read some of them, I find it super hilarious la. I mean, omgosh, we were so childish/funny/weird/cheesy/fill-in-whatever-adjective-you-want-here la!



But truly, it was then when our heart really speaks. There was no pretenses, there was no falsehood, there was no hyprocricity, it was all just genuine friendship that builds other up.

"A true friend is when you can sit next to that person, not talking but yet enjoy each other's presence"

6 1/2 years have passed, more years to come. I believe.

Words.
They can either build you up or break you down.

The battle is still on, deep inside. The very obvious battle that Jesus has already won 2000 years ago. Funny. Then why am I still fighting in an already-won battle? This is just so human.

Can someone please drill this fact into my cerebrum please?

Someone. Just please.

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