Back to School? Argh~

Had my summer holiday since November.

"Summer holiday?"

"Yes, summer!"

"Kita in Malaysia la..summer alllll theee wayyyy la friend!"

"But Australian Uni ma, so summer ma summer lor. Janji h-o-l-i-d-a-y!"

It was a long holiday.. about 3 1/2 months. But this holiday ends just in a blink of an eye. I remember how I used to not like a too-long-holiday and longed for school to resume, but this time its different. I WANT MY HOLIDAYS!!!

Lotsa things had taken place in these few months, let's recap:

• offered free biology tutorials for form 4s
• youth camp preparations
• more music and carolling practices!!
• youth camp @ Port Dickson
  
• PLANETSHAKERS conference 2006 in Sunway Pyramid Convention Centre
  
• more Christmas SHOPPINGS!!
• more services - Christmas eve services, sunday services, christmas service,watchnite service
  
• parties & gatherings & celebrations!!
• HOSPITAL ATTACHMENT in Sunway Medical Centre
• Chinese New Year

Whoa, just these, but all happening back-to-back. No wonder la I felt like as tho' I never rested enough. Now our dear university gonna resume with lotsa boring yet difficult-to-understand lectures, mount of lab reports, hills of assignments, rivers of tests (they come and go quickly) and urgh~ somemore long hour timetable with clashes in it. hhmmm...

Despite all these, one thing I'm looking forward to - to meet back all my dear friends.. LEE MAY JEAN, LEE YUAN DING, NG JEAN NEE, YI WEI, AH SIAN, JUNIE, EVELINE and so on..
I believe that this is gonna be another great semester and God's favour is upon it, He's gonna just blast and shower us with HIs ever flowing blessings and favours! Great things are coming our way (yes, that includes YOU)!!! Just expect and it'll come to you.

So, school isnt that bad after all eh? Be encouraged, be blessed and feel loved. Till then, signing OFF.

Journey To The South East!

Alot of tears are indeed shed in this month, February. Altho' all we now hear are those "dong dong dong chiang" and "gongxi gongxi".. somehow, I don't know why but the cny atmosphere doesn't brighten me alot. All I knew is that most of my close friends have left to further their final year(s) in the far-away Moo Moo Land in the South East of this globe, Australia. All I hear are..

"take care ah.."
"study hard ah!! dont play play!"
"please remember to miss me!!"

...from people for them in KLIA. These sort of advises, or rather commands? Let me name my friends that have left me.

• Khoo Sher Ri
• Kor Yat Tuang
• Tan Ju-Lear
• Shaleeni Jayamani
• Ivie Tan
• Alvin Wong
  
• Tan Sue-Li

Some pictures..

Yat Tuang, Ju-Lear and Sher Ri.
Left for UNISA in Adelaide



Sher Ri, my prayer buddy



Yat Tuang.. friend since kindy!



Ju-Lear, classmates in Taylor's College



Mun Wah, Mun K, Alvin - Worship team!



Sue-li and Mun..

I'm so gonna miss them. Especially Tan Sue-Li!!! I'll miss someone who..

• goes and come back from uni with me
• eats with me, whether lunch everyday, fried chicken in Klang Jaya or mamak
• attends lectures with me, sitting beside me
• is my lab partner for certain units. We'll try to switch labs etc to be lab partner with one another
• sourcing for assignments' answers, tutorials, printing and passing up assignments for me
• jokes around alot, entertaining me with her "omgosh" memalukan cases..
• talks to me all the way from uni right till in front of her house, can even miss the exits at Kesas HIghway when paid too much attention to her stories.Goodness, and the list goes on..
  

Sue-li, sorry that I cant send you off. You're really a blessing, a great friend to me. Missing you even right now. Continue to be a blessing to the fellow Australians there yea. Be good. Come back fast!!!!

Till then, signing OFF.

Sick and Die?

This evening, I was watching a Japanese series entitled One Litre Of Tears. Like the title suggests, it's quite a sad story I would say. Unlike those predictable korean touchy-lovey-dovey story when the two main actor and actresses hates each another, and then one day for some reason they fell in love with one another but one of them was diagnosed with cancer and so on. So predictable rite?

I'm only at episode 5 now, but its a true story about a girl with Spinocerebellar Autrophy, it's a type of disease that causes the peripheral nerves to not function properly. Slowly, she won't be able to talk, won't be able to walk straight and won't be able to hold heavy objects. She was only 15 years when diagnosed with this disorder and so far, there's no proper medication and treatment for this disease, it's incurable for the moment though researches are still in progress. My heart goes for her.

Last week was my last week in Sunway Medical Hospital. I wanted to learn more, beyond the lab. So, my friends and I made appointment with the head of the dialysis centre in the hospital so that we could visit and learn something from there. Those patients I saw there are without both kidneys, mostly advanced in age and therefore their kidney slowly degenerating. I spoke to some, and tried encouraging them showing that they are not useless, and we still love them as society. There's one girl there that caught my attention. I was told by the people there that she's only 20 years old. She started her dialysis about 7 months ago. She still hasn't fully accepted the fact that both her kidneys are not functioning. She has to be on dialysis, utilising the machine to wash off her toxics in her blood 3 times a week, each session takes 4 hours! It's really tiring. Her mom told me that she has stopped schooling. She didn't want to answer us as we tried talking to her. We understood. At that time, I really don't know what I should I say. When I put myself in her shoes, I dare not think what will happen to my life. My 2 other intern-friends who went with me said that they rather die than doing dialysis like this for life. At that time, I really felt for that patient

Simultaneously, I felt so blessed that I'm well and healthy. I felt bad when I took my health for granted. Not to mention not drinking enough of H2O everyday, what more exercising AT LEAST 20 mins per session, 3 times a week as advertised by the Kementerian Kesihatan? *cough cough* (btw, attempting to take up badminton and maybe tennis also, once uni resumes). Illnesses and diseases, they don't recognise ages, they'll just come and visit you if you allow them to. None of us are too young to die. Therefore, I felt the need to make full use of each and everyday with peace, love and joy. I want to bless others while I can, I want to love you all as much as I can, I want to encourage you while I can.. before I can't do any of these, before I regret. It's too late if I never dared to hug my good friends and family while I can now rather than when I'm on my bed, couldn't move and wanting to hug them.

Beloved, what are you waiting for? Make the "bestest" out of the best of each and everyday. Smile, laugh, hug and love people around you while you can. Things around you will be more colourful than you can ever think of.

Be encouraged, be blessed and feel loved. Till then, signing OFF

TAGGED!!

Tagged by Choo Mei Xian

So kesian-ted. Such new blogger like me also kena bully. Anyway, according to Choo (2007) in beliau's blog, each player of this game starts out by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog!

The problem is.. I'm not weird.. so no weird stuff to tell.. but after much head-scratching.. I think these six are all I have.. grins.

1. I'll never tell a friend if I love/care ALOT bout that person tho' I love/superbly care for them alot. I'll always demonstrate myself as a real bad person in front of them, telling them negative things bout myself and treat them as tho' I DON'T CARE bout them, or bully them.

2. I sleep with many pillows and po-pee (bolster) stuffed ALL AROUND ME and my favourite nicest-smelling blankie covering me from HEAD TO TOE.

3. I spend most of my time in my room (usually in front of the computer) compared to watching television in the living room.

4. When bathing, I MUST FOLLOW the routine. As in which procedure comes first, to wash my hair first and so on.. right till face etc. Cause if I don't follow, I'll forget if I've washed my hair etc, and will wash again probably for the 2nd or 3rd time (depending if i could remember)

5. When sitting anywhere, whether sofa or computer chairs or benches at lecture halls etc, I DISLIKE my feet to "land" on the GROUND. Would prefer if there's something to support my feet.

6. I'm closer to and love hanging out with people not my age, majority younger and some older. So far, friends that I'm close and comfortable with or even pour my problems are younger than me age-wise (especially Irin Tan, one's companion that I enjoyed most) but mentally-wise, they're all matured. I love hanging around with them, esp those in form 3 and form 5 this year. You know who you are!

LOL. Now, it's my turn to tag you!!

1. Amelia Lee
2. Fang Yi
3. Jolyn Ong
4. Li Anne
5. Sue-li and Eevon
6. Yoong Kang

Be blessed, be encouraged and feel loved. Till then, signing OFF

When I say "I am a Christian"..

After reading Amelia's blog, I realised this thing. Just thought that it could be a quick and good share.

When I say "I am a Christian"..
I'm not shouting "I'm a clean living!"
I'm whispering, "I was lost; now I'm found and forgiven."

When I say "I am a Christian"..
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble, and need CHRIST to be my guide.

When I say "I am a Christian"..
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak, and need His Strength to carry on

When I say "I am a Christian"..
I'm not claiming to be perfect.
My flaws are far too visible; but God believes I am worth it.

When I say "I am a Christian"..
I'm not holier than you.
I'm just a simple sinner, who received God's good grace, and could run the race with Him.

Please Be Patient With Me, God Is Not Finished With Me Yet!!

Be blessed, be encouraged and feel loved. Till then, signing OFF

pingpong

Today am off, don't need to go back to hospital for attachment. So I offered to fetch little sister, Mun Sheung to school for her co-curriculum. Mun Sheung joined pingpong club, earlier was because of me and then now she's enjoying it. I remembered the very first time she touched the pingpong table last year, her friends complemented on her playing and she proudly told everyone, "Of course la, my sister was the pingpong club president you know!"
*swt* how boastful that statement was when her sister, me, is just an average player.. now, the skills being oxidised, already karat, worse! But its a good sport, I would say. It looks easy, but its not, you should try.

There were too many people (like full attendance that sort) for each sports and since they are just primary kids, I was shocked seeing how they improvised the sports! Since there weren't enough tables.. The style of playing pingpong has been improvised to be like..

tennis style


badminton style

squash style

Being an ex-pingpong club committee, its quite saddening to see those kids not properly taught on the right way of playing but treating the game like nothing. It was my passion to make sure this club is not a dead one, and it differs from any other clubs. God was so good to me that He always open opportunities so that I could make lotsa positive changes. When I led the club, I strongly felt that my members should at least benefit and enjoyed the beauty of this sport by midyear. Made sure every member could at least serve and return simple shots. I do give them "test" and the points they obtained from the test would be added to their co-curriculum slip as their "penglibatan" and "pencapaian" marks. This was done to show appreciation to those good and faithful members so that they wont get only a maximum of 53 marks.. (50 marks for full attendance, 3 marks for normal membership). If it wasnt of God, I'm seriously nothing and couldn't handle all these.

These kids, if properly taught and with further training, could even represent Malaysia in the future. This reminds me of my pingpong kaki(s) back in MGS, pingpong players that represented Selangor and Malaysia.

Joelene (red) and Hie Phin (blue)

I really miss them wei! Joelene and Hie Phin are really good players, they took up pingpong since 4 years old and started training then, even before I learnt my ABCs. My club was blessed to have them and I enjoyed playing with them.. I started picking up this sport from scratch only in mid form 3? And never really played after MSSD in form 5. Now, tsk tsk.. not fit anymore.

L - R: Mun Sheung and Jes Lin

After the games, took some pictures. Mun Sheung (my sis) with Jes Lin (Pn Peh's daughter). They are same age, used to be classmates last year. This year Mun Sheung joined 5 Utarid and Jes Lin is in 5 Zuhrah. Yes, they are both standard 5 kids, but look at their size differences. My size was similar to Mun Sheung's, when I was in standard 5, we had similar height and weight. Blame the genes eh. LOL

Mun Sheung and I

Be blessed, be encouraged and feel loved. Till then, signing OFF

D r e a m * * *

I had a dream this morning. I can't remember the exact whole scenario right now but the message was really clear.

It's something like I was struggling, always wanting and trying to do everything perfectly and work out things the way it should be maybe to impress dad, to gain favour from people around and at the same time a good chance to boost my ever-low-self-esteem? I'll work and work and work through every opportunity to prove that I'm something, not a useless person. However, I was never satisfied enough with my work. Although I've gain the acceptance from people around me, I never feel good enough. There's always "something" more that I should do. For example, if I got an "A" for every subject in my studies, the "something" more would be "why didn't I get 100% for each subject?" It's these sort of thing, like never felt satisfied. Like the Malay's saying, diberi betis hendakkan paha.


Well, these went on in my life for yearsssss.. right until a day, a point where I FAILED to achieve what I supposed to do. I felt sooooooo condemn. Intimidated. Lost self-esteem totally. And I know dad will never love me anymore, people around me will look down on me and nobody would ever care for me anymore. It's hard to climb the ladder once again.


But Jesus came and He told me these,

"My child my child, why are you still living in the world of law? You need not do anything to come to me, you know I love you. You have been telling everyone 'Jesus loves you' but why aren't you living up to it? Indeed I really love you. You're now living the era of grace and because of me, therefore there are NO MORE CONDEMNATION. You're free, my dear. Do not let the past grip you, look to Me as you run this race. For my love for you is everlasting"


Beloved, though it was just a dream, I cried on the spot when I heard these words. Seriously. These words hit me. We know that Jesus loves us but yet we don't choose to believe it at all course. When we fail to do something, we feel condemned. Discouraged. But, this is not the way. Because we're no more living under law, but grace! We don't deserve everything.. the forgiveness of sins from Him, the love.. yet He wants to give us everything in the world! He promised. Folks, claim your territory even now and believing that you already received it!

Be encouraged, be blessed and feel loved. Till then, signing OFF.

Who Are You Spending Your Quality Time With?

I was at my friendster just now, I replied several messages and this image appeared once the messages were sent.


Normally, I would not be bothered by advertisements but this question: "who are you spending your quality time with?" caught my attention.

It somehow hits me. I admit I spend most of my time at home sitting in front of my lappy, either assignment-ing, chatting, surfing and all sorts I can do. I could sit here from morning till midnight yet, I won't feel bored or tired. I enjoyed nite chats with Jonathan talking bout medical and health stuffs; enjoyed teasing Fangyi with all sorts of girls, reading his responses and reactions, especially when he's so excited talking bout particular "2 girls"; LOVE chatting with both Xue Wen and Amelia because they are creative and can just keep the conversation on and on, and of course enjoyed the night chats with Sue May as well..

Enjoyed reading blogs and spamming their tagboards too. Surfing to medical references websites as I watch Grey's Anatomy is a cool thing you know! Knowing that there are men who wants to be pregnant and the first man with artificial (some in-vitro thingy) pregnancy is from China, Mr Lee Mingwei. He's proud, to carry a baby in his "womb". You can further read all these here: Male Pregnancy.

See! There are so much things to do online, definitely won't be bored. These are things I do when I'm on holiday la. When school reopens, gotta be assignment-ing and lab report-ing all the way dy. Can't even breathe. Too taxing to take up medical/health sciences courses, they do demand A LOT; especially Monash University in particular.

So, how could I not spend most of my quality time with my dear lappy?
You may be different. Your quality time spent, could be with your textbooks? Or your comfy bed? or televisions? I don't know.. but to be honest, how many of you give your prior time, first thing when you wake up in the morning you read the bible and spend the time with God? I'm ashamed of myself cause I do my devotions only at night. Will these be considered as giving God the remaining time of the day?

Besides these, I also wish to spend time with my family, my uni friends, my NS friends, my ex-high school friends, my "gang" in Harvest Youth. Email updates for my two good good friends, I Fen and Su Ann that are so far away from me?? In addition, I want to contribute a lot also, helping out with academics, or even back to school for pingpong? I don't know. I really want to do all these. From time to time, I do pop up some surprise phone calls or visits for Aivy or Jo-Anne and some others? MGS folks perhaps? I guess people like Sharon Teoh, Jolene, Nicole, Xue Wen, Amelia, Melissa Liew, Su-Ern and Michelle also see me till sien dy.. esp the first 5 people. There are just so much things that I want to do yet beyond my grasp! Why can't I do everything everyday??

But the truth is, we really need to examine ourselves on time management. Talking bout studies, many times we complaint that we don't have enough time.. There are so much to do, so much to study yet so little time is given. This shows how poor we are in managing our time. I've gone through PMR and SPM, they are seriously nothing compared to what I'm going through now in my course (maybe 1:10 ratio?).

Jesus knew all these. He has PhD for all the courses in the world. He's the professor of all professors if I could put it this way. He's the alpha and omega, He's the beginning and the end (Revelation 1:11). He's the author of our life (Hebrews 5:9). He created us, we are His creation (Genesis 5:1). So, what makes you think He didn't do well in His biology, physiology or even anatomy? If He knows all these beforehand, when He said "Seek Ye FIRST the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and ALL things will be added unto you" (Matthew 6:33), then do it. Cause He wants to give you EVERYTHING, only if you seek Him first in your life, priortise Him; that's all and ALL things (includes your exams, relationship, health etc) will be added unto you. Good grades in exams will definitely bring you good prospects in future, in your working life right up to 55 years old. But setting your goal on Jesus would bring you good prospects in your eternal life, forever and ever. You decide for yourself.

So, now all I know is to put God first in everything I do. I know everything else will be taken care by. Yes, EVERYTHING! I'm feeling comfortable in my work place now, and I really pray that I could continue to be a walking testimony for others. Wherever I go, I want to be different (not as to being weird) but shining His light all the way. Some people did come and tell me that they see something different in me, and that I really put my God first in everything I do. Folks, you too can!

Be encouraged, be blessed and feel loved! Till then, signing OFF.