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The most beautiful thing is to see a person smiling, and even more beautiful, is knowing that you are the reason behind it (:

02.12.10

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BUDDY!!

Hope the surprise was pleasant and you enjoyed yourself! Hope you love the gift too. I love you!

Magnum.

just only the other day, i was caught in a bad crawl along Jalan Pudu and on my right was Wisma Magnum. This building looks new, standing tall amongst the other buildings there.

when i took a little time off to observe, i saw the grandprize jackpot's figure, stated with red-coloured digital figures of the entrance wall. MYR 7 xxx xxx, it reads.

other than that, i also saw quite a number of old man, definitely passed their retiring age, in their bermuda khakis shorts and short-sleeved shirts, loitering at the corridor of this building

instead of despising them as gamblers, my heart actually felt for them.

i believe, these men, they'd know the probability of hitting the jackpot prize is almost impossible. however, they'd still continue buying those tickets hoping that they'd be the lucky one hitting the jackpot.

these people, they're not exactly those that only hope that large sum of money would drop for them and do not need to work forever. these people are actually buying hopes, they're buying chance, they're buying dreams

if only they know that He's their hope.

Just like my grandpa. He buys those 4D (i think) for the past decades and he has not even won rm300. Apparently its just a game and its okay to lose. He was daydreaming the other time when i visited him and he was so excited and imagine that if he wins it, he's gonna use all the money on us (his grandchildren) who wants to study. He wants to pay for all my education and hope that i continue studying till i finish my PhD or medicine.

See, at his old age he's not hoping for more like, driving a new car or getting a bigger house or go travelling. Apparently his joy is in us.

Yeah, so this is what I mean by buying hope.

p/s: fyi i'm not condoning any gambling activities here. Just like God, He hates sins, but He loves sinners (:

He Listens.

so i whispered a little prayer..

and oh, He heard me! what a joy!

friend, i'm so proud of you! i challenge you to get well even sooner so that we can have dinner together and play badminton together k? be strong!

Being Unwell Is Part of Life.

is this the not-feeling-well season or what? so many people around me seemed to be unwell. first agnes, then buddy also.

it may be just a common cold, but i dont know why i'm super worried for buddy when she first got it. and it aches me whenever she tells me the negative progressions and how i wish i could anything for her. it may be a normal thing to fall sick once a while, but somehow this time i really prayed hard for her speedy recovery so that she could enjoy her trip and will not feel unwell. i feel so helpless but to be by her side at all time and do whatever i can, those little things.

thank God you're alot better now (:

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today for the very first time in my life, i entered the ICU to visit a friend. and oh my, i was totally shocked and just can't accept the fact. seeing all the tubes being connected to her all over, unable to move or talk or omg, this is just sick!

my heart sank when i found out that she actually collapsed with no heart beat and pulse, and the paramedics and doctors had to resuscitate her with CPR. and even that, she was on life support for both her heart and lungs. her liver's damaged too, and her kidneys can't seemed to function well and she's temporarily on dialysis.

i literally stoned not knowing what to do or say when i met her, a friend that i could hardly recognise because of the water retention and swelling all over.

so i whispered a little prayer and i believe He is watching over her (: