Something You Don't Know.

These days I feel cranky, I feel condemned, I don't feel loved, I don't feel good, I don't feel appreciated, I don't feel.. the list can go on and on la, you get the drift. Basically, I'm paranoid la. These feelings come and go once in a while ever since the incident 4 years ago and I hate it when they come. And I know by right, I shouldn't even allow it to seep into my life in the first place, what more allowing it to dwell in me. I don't know larr.. jiorr.

And I secretly wished that someone would come by, or God would just send someone to come to me or to call to ask and to care and all like how He'd usually send me to various ones by speaking to me and see them blessed.

Someone was just telling me the other day that there's a difference between close long old friends and close new friends. Some would just go all out for you in times of need without worrying if they will get themselves into trouble while some would just "help" you if its convenient for them, and we're not talking about those extra miles business here.

To think bout it, man, she's half correct bout this theory. At this point of time (not that I'm really in deep trouble or anything la, really I'm not), I actually see neither of them. Actually now I really wonder if I had any close friends in the first place.

With these, I don't believe in karma. Call me Emo.

Is It Wrong To Study?

The Monash library nowadays is so packed with people that not a single unoccupied table can be found. That was the case for Dyanna the other day.

Exam season laa.. that explains right?

See, I'm clever, so I'll usually crash Sunway College instead. The library there's quite packed as well, but what they have is alot of empty unoccupied classrooms. Yes, classrooms! Xuewen, Pei Fun, Renee (occasionally) or Jon (occasionally) and myself would hijack an empty classroom there and that will be our library for the day. Provided no security guards chasing us off, that is.

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Last week's incident was my, by far, most embarrassing moment in my Uni days. You know la, no more Sue-li along side, not much embarrassing stories to tell.

Well, Pei Fun, Renee and I were studying in this classroom last week. The settings of the classroom is somewhat like following:


So when we heard sound (closing of doors of other classrooms), me, being the smart alec decided to play some hide-and-seek game with the patrolling guards. We turned off all the lights in the classroom and hid at the position as above. Renee squatted next to me while Pei Fun dengan pandainya went to the opposite (just as illustrated above).

I saw the guard peeping in through the small see-through-glass of Door A. Well, the door is something like this:

and he peeped in through that small transparent glass la. I was actually hiding just underneath there but of course he couldn't see anything since it was pitch-dark. He left, so we were safe.. Phew!


but that's not the end of the story yet!


He heard sound! So the guard went to Door B and that's because we forgot to turn off the noisy grandpa aircond!! OMG! At the sound of him turning the knob of door B makes me go ternganga and seriously, I do not know what should we do next.

He opened Door B, and the diffusion of lights from the outside of the classroom shone into classroom revealed Pei Fun's shadow a little. The guard then switched on the lights and said "Hello" to us.

How embarrassing I tell you! To be found hiding, squatting down in the dark at the back of those tables and chairs waiting to be revealed. We raised our white flags and left the classroom =(

Lesson learnt. No point turning off the lights only, we must also turn off the airconds and make sure the doors are locked!

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Next, since we were at the first floor, I decided to bring them to the fourth floor to hijack another class knowing that the guard has already checked them all. All doors were locked. I borrowed Pei Fun's library card, like what those intruders do, I opened the class' door with the card slit in.. The door was opened in approximately 8 seconds!

Pei Fun and Renee were definitely amazed by this magic and tutorial time was next! Taught both of them the trick and they did it! Now, both of them passed (with flying colours) in hijacking classrooms with a library card. Kudos!

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So today (another different story) Pei Fun, Xuewen, Jon and I got chased out from the class ('cause we were too slow!). That resorts us to hijack another class.

At every sound of footsteps, we'd quickly turn off the lights and airconds (the doors are locked always). Man, it was quite thrilling, so much of the adrenaline rush for the false alarms!

They hid something like these:


Pei Fun, xuewen and Jonathan.


Pei Fun


Jon

So we stayed in the dark for good ol' 10 minutes, hiding like an illegal immigrant.

Then someone mentioned, is it wrong to study?

I Was Supposed To Study (Part 2).

"Think books. Sleep books. Eat books."

Those are wise words from xuewen and she wants me to write it down somewhere.

Xuewen's not well today, so the studying plan not on. And because of this, a lazy bug bit me and maybe give it another try to do some studying at home? Let's see what I did today..

• woke up at 1pm
• makan
• watched tv
• shopped for WISE Cottage Fries (to be wiser) and livita
• emails, facebook, msn, blog hopping
  
• play the guitar

Experiment failed again. Previous theory was reconfirmed, I think I need to go to school! Exam's getting nearer and I'm so not ready again. Ahh.. repent.

Tomorrow it will be!

I want badminton!! I think I need a cup of nice brewed coffee. Any kind souls will be rewarded.. =)

Sometimes..

..we think we're wise.



and we do things and thinking that they're right and then we wonder why we still get a zero at the given task..


that's because we're not that wise after all.



Jesus, I know Your ways are higher than my ways and I may not see the plan You have for my life. But I pray that You'll grant me Your wisdom. Open my eyes and heart to see things the way You see it, Lord. Here I surrender myself wholly to You and I know I'm called blessed because of You. Thank You and in Jesus' Name, amen.

Don't You Wish You Have A Mentor Like Mine?

Dear mentor,

I'm revising in the library now and I'm so demotivated! Kept losing my
focus and the progress is so slow. I need motivation. Help! =(

yours truly,
demotivated mentoree =(


Aiyo..what happen? Which unit are you revising?
I can belanja you sweets...give you more energy and focus..


Food Science. The syllabus is not difficult at all. Just being very
restless here. Sweets? No other ways ah? Hahaha.


Am very busy la..cannot go out from office..sob sob

Probably drop by my office and have a quick motivational chat :)


Do you? =)